I was watching a movie the other day, and a mother asked her son if he had prayed about a situation. He said “yes”. She questioned him. She said, “there’s a difference between thinking and praying. You need to pray to God, don’t just sit there thinking about your problems….” That hit home with me, because there are days when I’m simply deep in thought, but I haven’t reached out to God with my concerns and desires. The absence of prayer suggests that we still think that we can solve the problem or create the solution, all on our own. I truly believe that this has and will always be my biggest blunder. When I keep thinking, “I, me, my” instead of turning to Him and saying, “how do You want me to best pursue Your ideas?” I set myself up for heartache. Let’s not forget, our ideas are His, made tangible to those who never stop believing in the possible. We must ask, be humble, show our gratitude, be great stewards, and hold dear to our faith in Him.
For years, I’ve struggled with stress and depression. I can overthink something to what seems like no end. I can emotionally spin and fall into slumps, and then I have to shake it off and dig myself out of the pit that my lack of faith created. It can be draining feeling like a washer machine some days—fill, agitate, spin, drain, fill, agitate, spin, drain.
Yesterday was rough for me. I had to face two harsh realities (while being reminded of several others) and at some point through my sobbing, I cried out and said, “It feels like everything is falling apart,” and someone near and dear to my heart, held me in a tight embrace and said, “no it isn’t. It may feel that way, but it isn’t….” and then moments later came the question, “have you prayed about this to God?” I dumbfoundedly replied, “no” and then said “I don’t know” when I was asked “why?” I had kept things in my head, thinking, but never praying. I didn’t turn it over to God. I kept holding on thinking that somehow I would solve the problems. Silly silly me. What made me feel even more foolish is when this person started praying for me. Sometimes that’s the motivation needed to step up and speak to God one-on-one.
God proves Himself to us daily. We must show our commitment to Him, beginning first through prayer to Him every single day— throughout each day. We must praise Him, throughout the day, for both the little and big things that He does for us. Gain the courage to commit to Him, to trust in Him, and to believe that success is not possible without Him. He will always provide a home and a way for us.
Father, You show me consistently how You are here for me, blessing me, and taking care of my needs. Your commitment and devotion to me gives me the courage and faith to believe in the impossible and unimaginable. I thank You now for blessing me with a home, filled with love and joy. I thank You now for solving the problems that I currently face, those that I created and those that I pursued. I thank You now for blessing me and protecting me all the days of my life. Thank You Father. Amen.