Breaking Bread For 5.4.20


Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.

James 4:7-8,10


Yesterday was a doozy for me and maybe it was also for you. But today does not have to be your yesterday if you trust and rely on God to help you see your way through. We should smile when faced with heartache, grief, turmoil, pain, setbacks, and disappointments. We should rejoice in the Lord for being blessed with yet another day to demonstrate His goodness, grace and mercy.

Sometimes we have to make difficult decisions to stay within the status quo of man and the flesh or to follow God. Sometimes we grow content with accepting the ongoing pain of living in the flesh that we don’t even consider the pleasure we receive from living in God’s light.

We must learn to love God above all else including ourselves. We don’t want the pain and friction caused by God molding us, but we don’t realize that we are causing that pain and friction because we simply won’t give up ourselves to Him and let go.

So yes, when we resist, the molding process is more difficult. But ironically, we are more willing to tolerate the enduring pain received in personal and professional relationships. We can quickly make excuses and try to find ways to compromise or totally acquiesce. We are double-minded and not fully loyal to our heavenly Father. We must choose which life we want to lead. We must choose whom we will consistently follow, trust, and obey.

If we don’t surrender to God the molding process only becomes more intense. Everyone wants to be like the disciples who had an easy escape exit, but who wants the responsibility of truly carrying the cross like Jesus? Who wants to walk as Jesus? I’m not talking about having hangers-on and followers who blindly cheerlead and applaud all that you do— that is not and was not Jesus’s path and demonstration.

Remember there were more than 100 disciples before they were narrowed down to the core 12 (with double-mindedness even in some of them). A lot of people fell off over time. Some tagged along but they weren’t fully committed to putting into action their faith. We read of the accounts of their time spent with Jesus, but Jesus’ walk was truly alone—only with God. Not all of his talks and prayers are recorded for us to reflect upon. We have no clue what Jesus really had to endure, the fears he had to overcome, the doubt and frustration that would creep up inside of him. I can say that I only wish I had the strength, courage, faithfulness, and perseverance that he had.

Can you imagine surrendering and giving yourself to the Lord knowing that tomorrow you will not be here with your loved ones? Just like Moses knowing that he would never enter the Promised Land; his mission was to get the children of Israel to a certain point and then Joshua would lead them the rest of the way.

To know when your last day on earth will be must be frightening at the same time it makes you appreciate more of life’s experiences and your mission and purpose along the way. That is why many people say, “live your life each day as though it is your last”. With that I send my love to each of you and pray for your peace and protection, and hope that you also pray for mine.


Father, I pray to release my burdens, fears, and doubt. I pray for the unnecessary pain that I have allowed to be placed upon me— because I did not put total faith in you—to be removed.

I know You’re trying to mold me Father. I know You’re trying to direct my path and I keep resisting; following man and the “liar”, and not You Lord. I keep letting the “liar” plant seeds of fear and insecurity in me, and I find myself watering those seeds and watching them grow.

Father I want to let go.

I want to believe what I tell myself daily, that I deserve to be loved fully, to be told the truth always, to be respected completely, and to be protected from harm. I get this every second of the day from You Father, when I can’t count on man to do the same.

Father I want to walk with You, have a pure relationship with You, and only trust and rely on You. I want to give myself to You Lord. I want to serve You and do only as You say. I know the trials and tribulations will come as they always do— but I want to be strengthened in Your Word, Your truth, and Your light that I can handle anything and everything that comes my way.

Give me the strength Father to walk away from relationships that keep my focus off of You and my mission with You. Give me strength, Father, to look in the eyes of those who deceive me, to know the truth, forgive them and then walk away. Give me the strength to accept that my today will not be my tomorrow and that where I am and who I’m with may not be the same in the coming days. Give me the strength Father to believe in myself and to know that even if I’m alone on this earth I am never apart from You.

Father free me from my shackles of double-mindedness and over-analysis. Bless me with the discernment to always know Your voice from any other, and the belief and knowledge that Your answer is always the right one. In Your name I humbly pray. Amen.

Love always,


Copyright 2011-2020. Natasha L. Foreman. Some Rights Reserved. All Prayers and Reflections are Copyright Protected by Natasha L. Foreman.

2 thoughts on “Breaking Bread For 5.4.20

  1. Princess says:


    1 John 4:4 You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world.

    Now, be free.

    I love you!


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