Dear children, let us not love with words or speech but with actions and in truth. This is how we know that we belong to the truth and how we set our hearts at rest in his presence: If our hearts condemn us, we know that God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything.
Dear friends, if our hearts do not condemn us, we have confidence before God and receive from him anything we ask, because we keep his commands and do what pleases him.
And this is his command: to believe in the name of his Son, Jesus Christ, and to love one another as he commanded us. The one who keeps God’s commands lives in him, and he in them. And this is how we know that he lives in us: We know it by the Spirit he gave us.
1 John 3:18-24
Every day we start anew with a hoped for understanding that we can make our own choices in life, but God is the ultimate and true decision maker. We have the choice to do right or wrong, to be loving and kind or cruel and selfish.
But at the beginning, middle, and end of each day (and every second in between) God still makes the decisions whether we walk, talk, think, breathe, move, blink, swallow, live here on earth or pack our spiritual bags and move on to another level of existence.
God still determines whether my bills are paid on time or whether I reach my goals on time, or at all. God determines whether I will get the remaining money I need by deadline, or whether I face the facts that it didn’t happen and that is just an “is” in life.
God determines whether I get re-married and have a healthy, joy-filled, honorable, faithful and loving marriage, or whether I remain as a redefined “single” woman having all of the love and commitment that I desire from marriage, but packaged differently, and without the labels.
God determines whether I give birth to children, become an adoptive parent, or a foster mom, or only pour my love on my Godchildren and my friends children as “auntie Tasha”.
God determines whether I live to be age 120 or if I leave here before my next birthday in two months.
That is why I have to learn to just let go and trust Him in all things, in all ways, through every moment. Trust Him like the trees, plants, and flowers do. They don’t grow impatient, uproot themselves, or go look for sustenance elsewhere. They wait on God.
For only He has the wisdom, power, and presence to handle anything and everything that comes my way. He knows of situations before they manifest in the physical realm. He knows everything. He sees and hears everything. There are no closets for us to hide our skeletons and truths from Him.
We are who we are and we can hide the truth from other people, but there’s no hiding it from Him. That is why we have such disharmony in our lives. Because we aren’t living our truth. We are con artists struggling to fit in two worlds, wearing multiple masks. We are so confused that we don’t even know who we are, so how can any other human? But God knows us. He’s known us before we were conceived. We are His thought, His idea, His essence molded in human form.
We need to stop pretending and start getting right with God. We need to stop playing games as though we have a trump card that can overrule God, and start realizing and acknowledging that He holds every card to every deck, and knows every move we’re going to make (or think we’re going to make) before we do.
We keep trying to go at life like a blindfolded person playing chess with their arms tied behind their back, legs bound to the chair, ears plugged, and mouths covered with tape. What moves are you going to make? What will free you?
We keep making the mistakes of Adam and Eve, believing the lie that God is hiding from us something that would make us equal to or greater than Him—when we haven’t even learned who we are, our purpose, and the relationship we’re to have with God. Adam and Eve didn’t get it and we still don’t get it. That’s why we keep trying to do things our way, not His. We think we can do it faster, all because we’re impatient, not because we’re more competent. We make fools of ourselves and it’s both sad and comical at the same time.
I pray to be less selfish each day so that I may be more selfless in my walk. I pray to be less bossy and opinionated, so that I can learn more to share more. I pray to forgive myself and others as quickly as God forgives me, and that I may feel worthy of forgiveness so that I don’t delay forgiving myself and others.
I pray to trust myself to let go, surrender, and trust God. Because this has nothing to do with me and everything to do with Him, and my relationship with Him. I open myself up to prove in and through my actions, in my beingness, not just my words that my declaration is truthful and not just “catchy” and sweet.
God knows both our heart and mind. Our motives are not a secret to Him. He will always checkmate us.
Enjoy your day and welcome your tomorrow when it arrives, and thank God for each moment that you experience—they’re filled with lessons. I love you all!
Father fill me with Your love and peace, that I might one day reach a point of maturity to love all of Your children, equally and without hesitation or judgment, as You have commanded.
Teach me Father how to be accepting and loving of each and every one of my fellow brothers and sisters as Jesus does. Let me see them as You do, and let me see myself as You see me.
Father, You know me better than I will ever know myself. You know my strengths and weaknesses, some I’ve acknowledged and some I’m still clueless or in denial about, but even in my imperfections I am perfect in Your sight as Your spiritual reflection. I want to be a better person Lord. I want to lead a better life where nothing and no one takes the place of You, comes before You, has more power (in my mind) over my life than You. I want my crooked walk to be straightened. I want my life to be filled with more peace and joy as I bring more peace and joy to others lives.
I know that nothing and everything takes place by Your will and grace, and there is nothing that I can do to change this, to change You, or to change Your Mind—for You are the ultimate and only decision maker.
Father I don’t want to disappoint You, even when I do, and even when later today I probably will— that is not in my heart Lord and You know this. Help me to discern truth from fiction, light from dark, love from fear, transparency from manipulation, real from fake, facts from opinions, and know that no matter what I go through You will always be here and there for me. In Jesus’ name I pray to You this day and everyday. Amen.
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