…Jesus told him, “Don’t be afraid; just believe.”
Mark 5:36 NIV
I dug in the “crates”, as they say, for this oldie but goodie. It was a post that I had written, on this day, in 2012. I’ve made some minor adjustments to reflect current day, while preserving that day. It’s been 7 years since writing the post and 18 years (this month) since my dad accepted his new assignment, took his spiritual promotion, and left for bigger and better. So much has changed since these two pivotal years (that I’ve mentioned), and so much has stayed the same.
Today, in honor of my father, I launched (through my company, Foreman & Associates, LLC, a podcast. It’s called “Don’t Call It Small…Business” Podcast. Here’s a link to Episode 1:
You can also listen to it and all future podcasts at: foremanllc.com/podcast.html I was a little scared about taking this (and some other big steps that I announced about a week ago) so I stayed up all night prepping for this 7am launch. Once launched and shared on social media, I finally went to bed at 9am—charged and ready for my next steps.
I hope that today, something charges you up, and motivates you to believe—and do something—big, bold, brave, and beautiful. Maybe you already have. If so, please share with me in the comments section below.
So are you ready for today’s blast from the past reflection? Alright then, here you go:
Let me first start off by wishing my late, great father, Robert Foreman, a very happy
59th 66th birthday. Eleven Eighteen years ago, this month, he passed away abruptly and without warning. The last three years I have done better coping and managing my loss, reminding myself that my dad always said never to mourn those who have passed-–that it’s our selfishness and not our obedience to God (and to those who have gone on to the next level of existence), that we hold on to and harbor these depressing feelings about that person leaving.
My spiritual side gets it. My human side wants my dad here to sit down and chat with me, get my sister aligned, and encourage my mom to reach out and grab those dreams. My human side wants my dad here, to walk me down the wedding aisle, to hold his grandchildren, to trash-talk me through my gym workouts, and to help me see clearly through business deals to see past my fears. My spiritual side knows that he is definitely in a better place with God and our loved ones, and that he always sees and speaks to me. My human side misses him and cries out from time to time, because I want to physically see, hear, smell, and hug him. I look at pictures of me, and I look into my eyes in the mirror, and I see how much I resemble him. It’s a warming thought, yet one that also makes me yearn to be in his physical presence.
This is where my faith needs strengthening. This is where my human side must align with my spiritual side, if I am going to make that next step on my journey as an ambassador for Christ. I must walk the walk.
I must face and overcome my fear of loss, failure, too much success, death, not becoming a wife and a mother, and not thriving on every level of my life. I must face my fears and overcome them if I truly want to live. I must rise each day with conviction, purpose, and a plan—and then run like crazy to make things happen each and every day. If I don’t face my fears then they will hunt me down and turn my nightmare into a reality. My fears will lead to my demise. How ironic is that? A fear of death leading to death. Wow!
2019 Update: I’ve since married and divorced, so that fear of not getting married has left me. Those other fears that I mentioner above, yep, I’m still battling them.
What are your fears? Where are you in your life at facing down those fears? Are you sick and tired of coming up short in so many areas of your life? Do you know this is only happening because of your lack of faith in God?
Are you ready to take that first step towards stomping on one of your fears? Then let’s do this!
I want to live a long, loving, joyful, healthy, rewarding, successful, wise, and prosperous life, how about you? So let’s open our eyes and take that first step today!
Father, I have to believe that You will protect me from harm, that You will guide me down the right paths, prepare me for what’s ahead, and that You will always make a way out of no way. I have to believe that if I have the knowledge then I can jump into any waters and come up unharmed. I have to believe that if I face any physical, spiritual, or psychological storms, that You will calm them just as You did through Jesus during the storm in Galilee.
Father, I’m praying for my release from fear. I’m praying for the ability to not be afraid— even when facing death, and I have to admit that I’m no where close to being there. I’m afraid of leaving here before I’m ready. But You already know this Father. Thank You for loving and supporting me even through the silliness of knowing that I have absolutely no control of the days or what happens in them.
Father, I humbly ask that, each day, You remove my fears so that I can, through You, replace them with complete faith in You. I pray these things with the deepest of sincerity. In Jesus’ name. Amen.
P.S. Happy birthday dad. Thank you for sharing so much in such a short period of time. If I knew then what I knew now, I would’ve been more intentional in soaking up the knowledge and wisdom that you shared, and I would’ve followed your counsel (rather than think that my way was better). We both know how hardheaded and stubborn I am [laugh]. Thank you for the conversations that I keep in my mental archives, and for for the loving pushes throughout the hardest of days. Dad, I promise that I will get this right and make both of us prouder than we already are! I love and miss you so much!
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