What I’m Praying For…

Happy Wednesday, Breaking Bread Family!

I know you’re wondering where those Monday through Friday Breaking Bread With Natasha (BBWN) messages are, and why they aren’t in your inbox. Well, God and I have been working on some big, bold, and bodacious things—starting first, within me!

See, when we want things to change for the better, change must first begin within us. Before we can see the external change we must uproot and overhaul the systems and processes taking place internally. We also have to take ownership of the truth and reality that most of our internal shut-down and malfunctioning was due to the fact that we simply couldn’t embrace and deal with external changes. Our unwillingness to adapt and overcome, turns into the excuse of “I can’t”, and that it is something or someone’s fault why we “can’t”.

Look folks, we can fool ourselves but we can’t fool the One who made and molded us. We can’t fool the One who consistently shows up on time and bails us out of our stupidity. We love to say the catchphrases, “keep it real” and “keep it 100”, yet we’re walking around here phony as ever.

Last year, God brought several people to speak to me, to rattle me up and out of my spiritual and emotional “funk”. He brought one person in particular who has helped me tremendously in showing me how to go deeper into prayer, how to ask God clarifying questions, and how to embrace those moments when I hear God’s voice over all noise and other voices. The last two months have really be soul-stirring as I’ve reached a point, spiritually, that I can only recall feeling this familiar when I was a very small child (younger than age 9).

Can you believe it?

Well you better because God’s no joke and His works are no lie.

Thank you KLB for allowing God to use you in this and so many other ways. Your obedience has allowed me to open and explore portals that have desperately seeked attention and use.

So family, I will resume the BBWN posts soon. I will also include other content. I will pick up the baton I sat down, in the form of the audio messages. I think there’s another platform that will work better for recording and storage, that I then can share an access link for those of you who are interested in connecting with me in audio. As God points me in the right direction I will follow, and then follow up with you.

My Book

Some of you have inquired about my book that I first started tap tapping on my keyboard to create back in August of 2016. I made an announcement at the end of 2017 that I was jumping back in so I could finish it. There were some moments of vision blocks and then a sea of pure release, as I’ve typed and edited along the way. I know from my years as a journalism student that you’re not supposed to edit while writing. You’re supposed to write, edit, and re-write what needs fixing, and then repeat the process until you reach the states of “good enough” or “oh God this is amazing”.

I’m roughly 90% done. I’m slated to complete this body of work by March to send to an editor. The goal is to have edits and the “shabang” done by June, for promotion to begin in August for a November/December sale date. That then sets everyone in motion to begin reading Day 1 of the book on January 1, 2020!!!!

Yeah yeah yeah…I know. I know. Some of you want the book now. I get it. You’ve been waiting more than one year. But guess what? God’s been waiting decades for me to write, finish, and publish a book. So I think you can wait 10-11 more months to get the book in your hand, and then one more month to begin the daily journey. I will need your help as I stride to these deadlines. I pray that you will be receptive and forthcoming with your assistance and feedback when I reach my arms out to you. This book is for you and people like you who want to embrace the unique and special relationship that we each have with God. That is why I am including you on this writing journey. Stay tuned for details.

Now…to what I’m praying for…are you ready to see what I typed last night for myself to read, recite, and stand true in today and each day? See below and then, if you have a sense of humor, go ahead and chuckle if you can relate:

Do you see it? Can you feel it? Can you relate? God has humongous things planned and in store for me, and He’s been waiting decades for me to stay on my path, get the work done, magnify Him, and testify through my walk (not just my talk) all that He has and is doing for me. I’m frequently disobedient, but He’s the grandest of teachers with the most patience and skills. Soooo…as He realigns me I will release my grip on my false sense of control, and let Him do what only He can do. I’m gonna listen to Him and not seek approval or permission from those He created. I’ve squandered almost 30 years on that foolish merry-go-round. I’m dizzy and nauseous. That ride is stopping. Now. Right now.

With that, I conclude today’s message. I hope that you’re excited for me. If not, shake off your “funk” and get with the program. We need your light to shine, we have enough shade to go around!

Love always,

Natasha

Copyright 2019. Natasha L. Foreman. All Rights Reserved.

Happy New Year! I’m Not Focused on Resolutions, I’m Focused on my Daily Walk

I shared this on my Natasha Foreman site earlier today, and I decided that it was more than appropriate to share it here on BBWN. I’ve added to the message so that it can lovingly poke some of you who are struggling with the storms of life’s past and present.

I hope that something that I share in this message helps….

I’m going to focus on today, today. What can I do, see, and be today? That is my focus.

If I have one foot in the past and one in the future, that means I’m straddling the present. If I’m straddling the present then all I can possibly do is take a dump on today or choose to move both of my feet into today’s space. I don’t know about you but I’m tired of dumping on my present. I want to thrive each day. I want to wake excited about what the day will bring, and I want to fall asleep at night pleased with all that I experienced, learned, and shared that day.

I want my life to be about healing reflection not regret. I want to make the most out of my days so that I’m excitedly sharing the greatness of now, and not dwelling on my hay day of the past successes. I want my setback to be a learning setup for bigger and better success, not a cesspool blame game of what-went-wrong.

Yesterday is behind us. Last year is behind us. So are all of the years past that you can’t return to and fix. What happened has happened. You don’t have a time machine to change things; and if you did, would you truly change every thing that happened in your past? Because you would have to in order to get your desired outcome, which means there’s a lot of great people and experiences you would miss out on all because you wanted to change one or more series in your life’s story.

Think of how much precious time you would then lose in the present and how that would then affect your future. There’s a better way to deal with our past….Learn from it and move forward. Stop dumping on your present, or that gift will no longer be your reality.

This isn’t a new year’s resolution, this is my daily affirmation. Focus on being, doing, and seeing all that God has called on me to be, do, and see today. What you plant and nurture today what will be reaped tomorrow.

My self-talk for today….

Maybe it will help someone else who needs a loving push. Yes, I can reflect God’s love in more ways than the traditional space that I’ve used for BBWN over the past 10 years. I can also share boldly with affirmations such as this. Maybe it will resonate with you and allow God’s words, meant for you, to pierce the bubble that you have placed yourself within.

I love you all!

~Natasha

Copyright 2019. Natasha L. Foreman. All Rights Reserved.

Stay Tuned For Today’s BBWN Audio Message From Natasha

Hi Breaking Bread Family!

I hope that you’re having a super awesome day. I haven’t done an audio message in awhile. A few weeks ago I had been under the weather and my voice was strained, so I chose to heal and not torture you with my raspiness [*smile*].

In a few minutes I will be posting my message and it will include an audio version, that has considerably more content than the written message. I hope that if you have time today, you will pause for a few moments to read and listen. I look forward to receiving your feedback. Thanking you in advance!

Love your sister in Christ,

Natasha

Copyright 2018. Natasha L. Foreman. All Rights Reserved. Breaking Bread With Natasha.

Breaking Bread Now Has Audio Feature

BB now has audio feature

Yes family, you read this correctly. Breaking Bread With Natasha (BBWN) is taking the next step with technology to include an audio feature. As you can see in this message.

Please click on the audio file below to listen.

Starting today, I will include audio files in my messages to allow you to listen to the message either while you read along, or during moments when you can’t read the message but would still like to hear it.

This will also hopefully benefit those individuals who may have strengths in other areas but maybe the sense of sight or the ability to read (at any level) may be limited.

I understand the task at hand. I understand the responsibility that comes with accepting and using this technology.

Currently, my resources are limited so I don’t have a fancy microphone, audio system, or sound-proof room. I’m not recording in a studio. I will oftentimes be recording in my home office, and it has windows. I say all of this now so that I can address the comments that I know will soon come about the sound quality. I believe that God will bless me with the resources to provide quality audio recordings. Just as I know that one day He will bless me to provide quality video recordings. Yes, I’m claiming both in the name of Jesus.

I have been resisting God’s loving urges that have been guiding me to and down this path for years. My resistance has only prevented me from receiving the blessings that He still has waiting for me. As a student of His word and a servant to Him and all that He calls on me to embrace and care for, I cannot continue to do the bare minimum—to serve only within my comfort zone.

If I want more out of life then I must do more. The action of giving is not good enough, it is your intention through giving that God examines. What does your heart reveal in and through your giving? God knows my heart as He knows your heart.

I’m giving to be closer and more intertwined with Him. I’m giving through gratitude for all that He gives me, even when we both know that I don’t deserve much of what I have received. So when I give freely and lovingly, He knows exactly why.

Please pray for me family. Pray that I don’t shut down out of fear, pull away, and settle for mediocrity. Pray that I continue to walk forward towards each benchmark that God has set before me. Pray that I continue being receptive and obedient to His commands and to my calling. Pray that I fully embrace my purpose and that I never stop giving all that God has poured into me. I thank you now for your prayers. I pray that God comforts you and keeps you, and that my message today inspires you to give freely to others.

I love you all!

~Natasha

Copyright 2018. Natasha Foreman Bryant/Natasha L. Foreman. All Rights Reserved.

Spiritual Quote of the Day

I found this quote on page 73 in the book 100 Days of Grace for Women.

This is my third time reading this book. Each time it feels like the first. I purchased it March 22, 2012 (which is amazing since it was published in January of that same year) and even after I read the last page, I always keep this book near so that I always know where it is when I need it.

It’s amazing how some of the best books that I’ve read I’ve purchased at the grocery store. You can find this book through online retailers and online thrift stores. I’ve provided some direct links to the book (from the retailers) below:

Amazon (book around $5.00)

Barnes & Noble (book $1.99)

Thrift Books ($3.99)

Discover Books ($3.98)

Please let me know if you do eventually purchase it, and what you think about the book. Thank you.

Love,

Natasha

Sometimes We Must Look Back to Look Forward

Dear Breaking Bread Family,

I sat in deep reflection yesterday as I examined my life and the lessons that I’ve learned, and those lessons that I keep bumbling. One thing I know is that all though I may grow tired the moment that I verbalize it, that tiredness becomes my reality. I started this part of my spiritual journey in 2008 and it grew into this blog in 2009. I needed to return to my “roots” and my foundation through the scriptures. I had strayed and it was apparent in both my personal and professional life. I didn’t know how to fight the enemy’s attacks because I had forgotten my training from childhood.

Over the past three years I’ve taken occasional breaks and hiatuses thinking that it was needed in order to “breathe” and connect more with God. That is not what God called me to do. I simply gave in to the verbalizations that I was “weak and tired”. But it was not the burden of my service through Breaking Bread. I convinced myself that it was. No. It was the chaos of life around me. It was the drama I willingly walked into and became consumed with that easily distracted me. I had convinced myself that I was “tired”, “drained”, and “exhausted” from spending the one to three hours each day reading, studying, praying, reflecting, and then writing my post for this blog. When actually each day I invest in my study I am recharged, focused, and emboldened to press forward.

At some point last year I tried to develop a schedule where I could commit the time to create multiple posts and then schedule their publishing dates for release. It was working well until the drama said “hey Natasha do you want to get consumed with this nonsense over here?” and the mental attacks soon became my verbalized prophesies. It is true that “what you think about and then speak about, you bring about“. It is not in the thinking that we create the havoc in our lives. It is once we verbalize those thoughts, claim them as truth, that they then become our truth. Whether good or bad, positive or negative, our words spoken aloud become our reality. The more you say it the more concrete it becomes.

So today I declare that my storm is over. The rain, lighting, and thunder has stopped. The clouds are parting. I can see the sun shining brightly. I can hear the birds chirping. No matter what I’m going through personally or professionally I know what God has called on me to do through Breaking Bread. I know that it has made me a better student of God’s Word in many texts, not just the Bible. This journey has helped me to be more receptive to other approaches to that big mountain that all of us climb to be closer to our Creator and His Truth. My walk through Breaking Bread has made me stronger and it has enhanced my level of discernment. It has helped me to see the wolves in sheep’s clothing. It has helped me to tune in and listen for God’s voice above all others.

I have to constantly remind myself of something my father used to always tell me, “…the closer you get to God, the more you are attacked by mortal mind (the enemy)…” and dad explained that the more involved he became in the church, the more leadership roles he took, and the more involved he was in his studies of Christianity, the more he was attacked. That attack is first and always mental. Then it manifests through the speech and actions of others–and your own. If your mind and heart are not steadfastly focused on God and the big picture you can find yourself caught up in the drama and chaos. You can find yourself pulled off of God’s path and your plans derailed.

There will always be times when the enemy is trying to convince me that God doesn’t love me, is ashamed of me, and won’t protect me. But what about those thoughts that I stir up based on my insecurities and fears, are those not as powerful or more powerful than the enemy’s attacks on me? I would say yes they are. I would say that my self-talk will either make or break me, that I can speak forward my blessings or speak them out of existence. I can claim sickness or I can claim health. I can claim poverty or claim wealth. I can claim loneliness or claim a life that is filled with the embrace of loved ones. I can claim death or I can claim life. I can claim pain or I can claim recovery. I can claim defeat or victory. What I claim is my statement about God’s power and presence. When I claim the negative I am saying God is limited. When I claim the positive I am saying that God is all-in-all, omnipresent, omnipotent supreme, omniscience.

We are what we say that we are. God has wondrous plans for each of us and every time we claim something that goes against His plans He merely waits for us to claim what is Truth. He postpones the blessings because He sees that we don’t yet have the faith to believe wholeheartedly His Truth and promise. Why give us something we don’t believe is possible–we will only ruin it. So He waits for our open minds, hearts, and arms to place before us what we are ready to receive.

I’ve been in a rocky space for several months. My life plans were derailed, my dreams seemed to be squashed, and the “rug” was snatched from under me. The pain at times felt unbearable. I would have moments of declaration that I am God’s child and no one and nothing could change that. I would have moments where I could feel the Light shining on me and I knew all would be well. But my faith would be challenged by words and actions of others that seeped inside of me and my thoughts began to manifest the words I spoke about myself, my life, my career, my future, and my health. It has been a tug-of-war for my soul. It has been a battle to remain planted in the present with arms opened wide, receptive to God’s blessings. It has been a battle to fight against the darkness that needs for me to cry tears of sorrow, be depressed, be broken, be angry and bitter–that darkness needs to feed off of my negative energy so that it can grow and consume me. But God is a constant reminder that it is He that has the power and glory. It is He that provides me with all that I need and He is the potter that molds me.

i-am

God has been sending His servants to speak to me, to remind me who I am and to Whom I belong, and the mission that God has placed before me. Just the other day one of God’s servants told me, “Natasha your storm is over…don’t talk yourself into a holding pattern anymore…” and they continued to speak those words over me knowing that my mind and my mouth kept saying the opposite. We spoke for almost two hours that day. God was speaking through this person, waking me up from this nightmarish dream. That call did not end until the servant heard me verbalize with conviction that my storm was over and that I was ready to resume my spot, reclaim what is mine, and move forward on the path that God has placed before me.

That day I said I would resume reading Joel Osteen’s book “I Am”. A book that I’ve picked up and sat down countless times. Not because it’s poorly written or is absent from the truth. No, not at all. This book is powerful and poignant. God used Joel Osteen magnificently. But remember what I said about those thoughts in your mind that attack? Those thoughts had me put down Joel’s book multiple times since last October when the book was gifted to me for my birthday from my aunt Valerie. I also put down a book on abundant living that a friend gave me last year. This year I purchased, briefly read, and then put down a book on forgiveness and freeing self from anger. All three books are exactly what I needed to and still need to read, consume, and embed in my thinking so that I can verbalize my truths and God’s Truth. But I chose instead to consume books on fantasy, mystery, and yes–drama and chaos. There’s nothing wrong with escapism. It builds our curiosity and creativity. But it can be a no-no when you’re going through a rough time and you’re finding yourself spiraling into darkness and struggling to maintain control. What I need right now are layers upon layers of God’s Word rolled out in various ways through various people. I need reinforcers that encourage my positive “I Am’s”. I need sources of God’s Light and Truth.

I share all of this today to say that sometimes we must look back in order to look forward. Rather than feel burdened by the responsibility of writing new content each day for Breaking Bread, I’m going to focus on listening to God. There are days when He tells me to look back on previous messages that I’ve shared. There are moments in time from the past that are still so relevant now. There are times when something didn’t make sense but now they do. There are scriptures, prayers, and reflections from the past that are “on point” today. That is why I am focused on consistently reintroducing previous messages that I’ve shared over the past seven years, while also listening intently to God when He directs me to other scriptures that I have yet to study through this medium.

Today I will share a message that I wrote in 2010. When I clicked on the message my mouth parted and I smiled. It spoke to me today with as much if not more feeling and depth, and relevance as it did when I first wrote it. It is exactly what I needed to read and recite aloud. Remember, it is not just what we think it is what we speak aloud that manifests, forms, and shapes our present and future. We read and study the Bible, a book written thousands of years ago, to help us in our present so that we are prepared for the future. My study, your study, should be a layering of messages shared in the past with newer messages shared in the present–as we approach different situations and look through multiple lens we can then see the applicability of Truth from various angles.

I am determined to rewire my speech to correct the negativity that spews out about myself and others, no matter how harmless or insignificant I may think that it is. Even if the words are truthful I have to be mindful of the fact that the moment I speak something I then play a role in its manifestation. Words have power when spoken. I’m not striving for perfection. I desire internal peace. That is only possible when I make the effort to declutter my life and the thoughts that I speak. Who wants to be around a negative person? Who wants to be around a person who mopes around looking glum and defeated? No one except other miserable people, because misery loves company.

Our biggest enemies are ourselves.

I don’t know about you but I want to be blessed and feel blessed at all times. I want to feel God’s loving light shine on me. I want to feel the peace within. I want to smile brightly and dance and sing as though no one is paying attention. I want the freedom of the innocent child I once was– before “I can’t“, “It’s impossible“, “What if I never…“, “It’s too much to handle“, “Why me?“, and “What did I do to deserve this?” became familiar phrases in my life.

So look for today’s Breaking Bread message to hit your inbox and appear on my site within the hour. Yes, I’m back folks!

Love,

Natasha