Happy Birthday Mom!

Bride's Mother

Today is my mother’s birthday and I wanted to make sure that I shared this day with the world. My mom is my mother, friend, confidante, supporter, protector, provider, nurturer, and so much more. She was my first teacher. I was blessed to hear her heartbeat and voice from within her womb. I am the woman I am partly because of the woman who is my mom. I can’t imagine my life with another woman as my mother.

mommy and me at Santa Monica Beach 1976

She taught me how to read at the age of two. She taught me how to dance. She encouraged me to get a little dirty outside in the yard. She taught me how to cook. She taught me how to use my critical thinking skills. She exposed me to that wonderful creative brain of hers and opened my eyes to all of the wondrous things that I could one day create.

Bride's Father

My mom has taught me to seek and find the silver lining in all of life’s clouds. She also taught me the gift of giving. It is because of her I started volunteering in my community as a child. It is because of her that I continue to volunteer and give back to communities all over.

me and mom 1985

I thank God every single day for blessing me with an amazing mother, teacher, and friend. Here’s to many many many more days and years celebrating and being thankful for this beautiful woman.

mom and me at Uncle Archie funeral March 2017

Happy birthday mom. I’ve loved you from the moment I was conceived and I will love you forever.

Love Your “Fish”,

Natasha

Sometimes We Must Look Back to Look Forward

Dear Breaking Bread Family,

I sat in deep reflection yesterday as I examined my life and the lessons that I’ve learned, and those lessons that I keep bumbling. One thing I know is that all though I may grow tired the moment that I verbalize it, that tiredness becomes my reality. I started this part of my spiritual journey in 2008 and it grew into this blog in 2009. I needed to return to my “roots” and my foundation through the scriptures. I had strayed and it was apparent in both my personal and professional life. I didn’t know how to fight the enemy’s attacks because I had forgotten my training from childhood.

Over the past three years I’ve taken occasional breaks and hiatuses thinking that it was needed in order to “breathe” and connect more with God. That is not what God called me to do. I simply gave in to the verbalizations that I was “weak and tired”. But it was not the burden of my service through Breaking Bread. I convinced myself that it was. No. It was the chaos of life around me. It was the drama I willingly walked into and became consumed with that easily distracted me. I had convinced myself that I was “tired”, “drained”, and “exhausted” from spending the one to three hours each day reading, studying, praying, reflecting, and then writing my post for this blog. When actually each day I invest in my study I am recharged, focused, and emboldened to press forward.

At some point last year I tried to develop a schedule where I could commit the time to create multiple posts and then schedule their publishing dates for release. It was working well until the drama said “hey Natasha do you want to get consumed with this nonsense over here?” and the mental attacks soon became my verbalized prophesies. It is true that “what you think about and then speak about, you bring about“. It is not in the thinking that we create the havoc in our lives. It is once we verbalize those thoughts, claim them as truth, that they then become our truth. Whether good or bad, positive or negative, our words spoken aloud become our reality. The more you say it the more concrete it becomes.

So today I declare that my storm is over. The rain, lighting, and thunder has stopped. The clouds are parting. I can see the sun shining brightly. I can hear the birds chirping. No matter what I’m going through personally or professionally I know what God has called on me to do through Breaking Bread. I know that it has made me a better student of God’s Word in many texts, not just the Bible. This journey has helped me to be more receptive to other approaches to that big mountain that all of us climb to be closer to our Creator and His Truth. My walk through Breaking Bread has made me stronger and it has enhanced my level of discernment. It has helped me to see the wolves in sheep’s clothing. It has helped me to tune in and listen for God’s voice above all others.

I have to constantly remind myself of something my father used to always tell me, “…the closer you get to God, the more you are attacked by mortal mind (the enemy)…” and dad explained that the more involved he became in the church, the more leadership roles he took, and the more involved he was in his studies of Christianity, the more he was attacked. That attack is first and always mental. Then it manifests through the speech and actions of others–and your own. If your mind and heart are not steadfastly focused on God and the big picture you can find yourself caught up in the drama and chaos. You can find yourself pulled off of God’s path and your plans derailed.

There will always be times when the enemy is trying to convince me that God doesn’t love me, is ashamed of me, and won’t protect me. But what about those thoughts that I stir up based on my insecurities and fears, are those not as powerful or more powerful than the enemy’s attacks on me? I would say yes they are. I would say that my self-talk will either make or break me, that I can speak forward my blessings or speak them out of existence. I can claim sickness or I can claim health. I can claim poverty or claim wealth. I can claim loneliness or claim a life that is filled with the embrace of loved ones. I can claim death or I can claim life. I can claim pain or I can claim recovery. I can claim defeat or victory. What I claim is my statement about God’s power and presence. When I claim the negative I am saying God is limited. When I claim the positive I am saying that God is all-in-all, omnipresent, omnipotent supreme, omniscience.

We are what we say that we are. God has wondrous plans for each of us and every time we claim something that goes against His plans He merely waits for us to claim what is Truth. He postpones the blessings because He sees that we don’t yet have the faith to believe wholeheartedly His Truth and promise. Why give us something we don’t believe is possible–we will only ruin it. So He waits for our open minds, hearts, and arms to place before us what we are ready to receive.

I’ve been in a rocky space for several months. My life plans were derailed, my dreams seemed to be squashed, and the “rug” was snatched from under me. The pain at times felt unbearable. I would have moments of declaration that I am God’s child and no one and nothing could change that. I would have moments where I could feel the Light shining on me and I knew all would be well. But my faith would be challenged by words and actions of others that seeped inside of me and my thoughts began to manifest the words I spoke about myself, my life, my career, my future, and my health. It has been a tug-of-war for my soul. It has been a battle to remain planted in the present with arms opened wide, receptive to God’s blessings. It has been a battle to fight against the darkness that needs for me to cry tears of sorrow, be depressed, be broken, be angry and bitter–that darkness needs to feed off of my negative energy so that it can grow and consume me. But God is a constant reminder that it is He that has the power and glory. It is He that provides me with all that I need and He is the potter that molds me.

i-am

God has been sending His servants to speak to me, to remind me who I am and to Whom I belong, and the mission that God has placed before me. Just the other day one of God’s servants told me, “Natasha your storm is over…don’t talk yourself into a holding pattern anymore…” and they continued to speak those words over me knowing that my mind and my mouth kept saying the opposite. We spoke for almost two hours that day. God was speaking through this person, waking me up from this nightmarish dream. That call did not end until the servant heard me verbalize with conviction that my storm was over and that I was ready to resume my spot, reclaim what is mine, and move forward on the path that God has placed before me.

That day I said I would resume reading Joel Osteen’s book “I Am”. A book that I’ve picked up and sat down countless times. Not because it’s poorly written or is absent from the truth. No, not at all. This book is powerful and poignant. God used Joel Osteen magnificently. But remember what I said about those thoughts in your mind that attack? Those thoughts had me put down Joel’s book multiple times since last October when the book was gifted to me for my birthday from my aunt Valerie. I also put down a book on abundant living that a friend gave me last year. This year I purchased, briefly read, and then put down a book on forgiveness and freeing self from anger. All three books are exactly what I needed to and still need to read, consume, and embed in my thinking so that I can verbalize my truths and God’s Truth. But I chose instead to consume books on fantasy, mystery, and yes–drama and chaos. There’s nothing wrong with escapism. It builds our curiosity and creativity. But it can be a no-no when you’re going through a rough time and you’re finding yourself spiraling into darkness and struggling to maintain control. What I need right now are layers upon layers of God’s Word rolled out in various ways through various people. I need reinforcers that encourage my positive “I Am’s”. I need sources of God’s Light and Truth.

I share all of this today to say that sometimes we must look back in order to look forward. Rather than feel burdened by the responsibility of writing new content each day for Breaking Bread, I’m going to focus on listening to God. There are days when He tells me to look back on previous messages that I’ve shared. There are moments in time from the past that are still so relevant now. There are times when something didn’t make sense but now they do. There are scriptures, prayers, and reflections from the past that are “on point” today. That is why I am focused on consistently reintroducing previous messages that I’ve shared over the past seven years, while also listening intently to God when He directs me to other scriptures that I have yet to study through this medium.

Today I will share a message that I wrote in 2010. When I clicked on the message my mouth parted and I smiled. It spoke to me today with as much if not more feeling and depth, and relevance as it did when I first wrote it. It is exactly what I needed to read and recite aloud. Remember, it is not just what we think it is what we speak aloud that manifests, forms, and shapes our present and future. We read and study the Bible, a book written thousands of years ago, to help us in our present so that we are prepared for the future. My study, your study, should be a layering of messages shared in the past with newer messages shared in the present–as we approach different situations and look through multiple lens we can then see the applicability of Truth from various angles.

I am determined to rewire my speech to correct the negativity that spews out about myself and others, no matter how harmless or insignificant I may think that it is. Even if the words are truthful I have to be mindful of the fact that the moment I speak something I then play a role in its manifestation. Words have power when spoken. I’m not striving for perfection. I desire internal peace. That is only possible when I make the effort to declutter my life and the thoughts that I speak. Who wants to be around a negative person? Who wants to be around a person who mopes around looking glum and defeated? No one except other miserable people, because misery loves company.

Our biggest enemies are ourselves.

I don’t know about you but I want to be blessed and feel blessed at all times. I want to feel God’s loving light shine on me. I want to feel the peace within. I want to smile brightly and dance and sing as though no one is paying attention. I want the freedom of the innocent child I once was– before “I can’t“, “It’s impossible“, “What if I never…“, “It’s too much to handle“, “Why me?“, and “What did I do to deserve this?” became familiar phrases in my life.

So look for today’s Breaking Bread message to hit your inbox and appear on my site within the hour. Yes, I’m back folks!

Love,

Natasha

Took a Much-Needed Break and Now I’m Back

Happy Monday!

I hope that my Breaking Bread family is having a super awesome day and that you’re walking around with a smile on your face even if your life reflects what should be a frown. Trust and believe me when I say that the past six months have felt like hell on Earth for me, but I know that I can’t waste too many days with a frown on my face, because that would mean that God was losing the battle and wasn’t capable of better. It would also mean that I’m not grateful for the daily blessings that He bestows upon me knowing that I don’t deserve them and haven’t earned them—it’s just His loving grace!

I took a couple of weeks to clear my mind, deal with some personal issues, pray, reflect, and listen. Who was I listening to? God. I won’t lie, the enemy sure did have my ear more times than I care to admit. But as always, our Father-Mother always prevails.

So I’m back in the saddle. A post will be coming your way momentarily. I’m also pleased to say that I have an update…

This weekend I dedicated time to work on my book. I hit a wall awhile back because I couldn’t think and see clearly with all of the things that were taking place in my life at the exact same time. But this weekend left me with a great opportunity to sit down and let my heart guide me to where I need to be, and where you the reader would like to see me go with my writing. This is a scary process. Blogging is easy. Writing a book that you think people will want to read and share, and pay for—now that’s a mountain to climb. I’ve been encouraged to keep pressing forward and to remember the nostalgic phrase, “if you build it they will come“. I have to believe that when I do this people will want to read it and share it with others. I can’t keep struggling with God and trying to tell Him how to use me. I have to let go of the steering wheel and let Him steer and be the Captain.

I will keep you updated on my progress. If there is something that you would like to experience from this or any of my future books (yes, I’m speaking that into existence), please don’t hesitate to contact me and share your ideas and requests. Maybe just maybe I can make it happen. Anything is possible when you let God do the steering!

Love your sister in Christ,

Natasha

 

Copyright 2017. All Rights Reserved. Natasha L. Foreman.

My BIG Announcement!!!

Happy Saturday Family!

Well here we are. The moment has finally arrived. It’s time for me to share my big Breaking Bread announcement. I’m nervous but I’m ready. I will stop teasing you and start showing you how God will be using me. So let’s do this!


Next year I will be publishing a book, my first to ever be released for public reading. Yes, you read that correctly. My first of many being lined up for the world. 

I’m finally taking the big leap!

For more than 12 years people have asked me to write books, to tell my story, to share my gifts with the world. I’ve started and stopped numerous times. For over 8 years, I’ve had Breaking Bread readers ask me, “when are you going to write a Breaking Bread book?” Well family, I can say that the time is now!

I started drafting the book in August. The enemy jumped into hyper mode trying to tell me to keep it small, don’t go big and bold. I’ve chosen to listen to God, Who told me to go big, bold, and bring 100 percent in honor of Him. So that’s what I’m doing. 

I’m working with a team to outline the marketing and rollout strategy, publisher requirements, and how to thank everyone who has supported me and the Breaking Bread blog since 2009. 

I can’t share all of the details now. I can say that I have a title for this particular book. I finalized that this week (after changing it twice). This book is based on my work through the Breaking Bread blog. There will be both an e-book and a soft-bound print version. Let me stop there before I reveal too much. *Smile*

I’m trusting God. I’m walking confidently wherever He guides me. I’m ready for Him to use me at this new level. I will not let anyone or anything get in the way of this project and God’s plan. I’ve put the enemy on notice. It better back down or get smacked down! This is God’s domain!

So please stay tuned for details in the near future. If you have ideas, suggestions, or requests for the new book and future books, please email them to me at: breakingbreadwithnatasha@gmail.com

Thanks family. I’m excited. No more hiding in fear, doing just enough. Next year is the year to stand up and be all that God has called us to be. 2017 is the year I declare, “No fear! Just winning!”

I love you all!

Your sister in Christ,

Natasha 

It’s Coming Today at 12:30pm EST!

Good morning/afternoon Breaking Bread Family!

My big announcement I posted a teaser about a few weeks ago, is finally being shared today at 12:30pm EST, so check your inboxes and notifications. 

I’m ending 2016 strong and stepping in 2017 determined. I hope that you will join me along this journey!

Love,

Natasha 

Breaking Bread Has a New Look…But That’s NOT The Big News!

Happy Wednesday Breaking Bread Family!
So I’ve made some changes to the Breaking Bread site. There’s even a snazzy warm logo. I’ve added some things and got rid of some other things. I’m clearing the way for what God has in store. I’m getting the baskets ready for the fish and loaves of bread that I prayed for. I’m starting now rather than waiting for later. 

We must be prepared for God’s provisions when we ask for them. What’s the purpose of asking for a blessing if you aren’t ready for it? 

I could’ve waited until January 1st to come with the new look, to declutter things–but then I would be playing catch up. I’m learning to do it when God places it on my heart to do it, not when it’s convenient or comfortable. Just stop and do it. So I did. A new look. A new feel. A new vision. A new page being turned. 

Please stop by and check it out. This is a teaser for the big announcement that I have planned in the upcoming days. 

Yep, you read that correctly. This isn’t the big announcement. It’s coming and I’m excited. 

God has said I’m ready. God has shown me that I’m ready. I won’t let fear stand in my way. I won’t let other people stand in my way. I won’t be discouraged. I’m stepping out knowing that God has my footing because He directs my steps. That’s a Proverbs 16:9 reference that we really should embed within ourselves. 

Enjoy the site and enjoy today’s Breaking Bread message that is scheduled to post later today. We have some praying and reflecting that we need to do today! 

I love you all!!!

Your sister in Christ,

Natasha 

BIG Announcement Coming Soon!

Hello Breaking Bread Family!

I just wanted you to know that I have a BIG announcement to share in the upcoming days. God has touched my heart to share publicly, and at the time He sees fit. So I will be obedient, which I’m oftentimes not—but I most definitely will this time [*smile*]

Hey, I’m in training, being molded, and extremely flawed. He knows this. Hopefully you can simply laugh and accept this and me too. 

I love you all!

Your sister in Christ,

Natasha 

Message From Natasha…Finally! 

Dear Breaking Bread Family,

It’s been a long time since I broke bread with all of you. I sometimes feel ashamed that in my time of weakness I kept to myself, rather than turning to God’s Word and my role as servant to help strengthen me. As you see, like I keep saying, I’m a plain ole’ human just like everyone else—and definitely a work in progress!

So let me catch you up. But let me prepare you now, this is going to be a lengthy post. That’s what happens when you haven’t spoken to someone in a long time. We have a lot to talk about. So let’s do this…

What’s The Reason For My Absence?

I’m about to be transparent. How else can one testify about God’s blessings and healings if we aren’t transparent? 

For the past two months I’ve been struggling with a lot. I had surgery (that went very well) and thanks to my sister, I had great care while recovering at home. But then 10 days later I took a 5-hour plane and two-hour car trip, and on the eleventh day I was hospitalized with pulmonary embolism. Houston we have a problem!

Hooked up to all sorts of machines I stayed in deep prayer while in the hospital. I had only stayed in the hospital twice in my life, when I was born and again in 2011, so I was initially scared about being alone with all of these tubes and wires attached to me. I eventually found the peace within and became settled. Some may think or even say that it was a dumb idea to make the trip, but even that experience was a blessing. I will explain why shortly. 

God Working For & Through My Family

It was difficult to break the news to my mom and sister. I was thousands of miles away and they had to trust me that I would be okay. I could hear the fear in their voices when I explained what happened and what the doctors were saying to me. I reassured my mom and sister that I was mentally and spiritually grounded, that I knew Who’s child I was and that I would make the best out of this situation and out of my stay. 

My amazing paternal aunt, Debbie, lifted me up in prayer and was the first and constant voice that I heard when I woke up in the hospital. She was by my side at 7:15am and my biggest advocate when dealing with the doctors. 

God worked through my aunt to help me in more ways than I know. 

My mom, sister, and aunt filled me with so much positive energy and I was determined to remain positive and uplifted during and after my hospital stay. I did exactly that. I kept the hospital staff laughing and smiling, which kept me laughing and smiling. 

Spending time with my paternal grandmother gave me a triple dose of spiritual armor. Whenever I want to hear the unwavering voice of faith and belief, I can call my grandmother. There is no question in her mind who God is and what He can and does do. She is a genuine soldier of Christ. I pray to reach her level of understanding and commitment during my lifetime. 

When I returned to my home in Atlanta (a few days before Christmas) my sister immediately resumed and assumed her role as my caretaker. God worked through her in amazing ways. She cooked, cleaned, and kept me laughing and smiling at times when I wanted to cry. When she was at work she would call to check on me and make sure I was doing my part towards healing. She would make sure I wasn’t over doing it trying to be Wonder Woman!

My mother, in another state, taking care of her mother, kept me positive and inspired each day with scriptures and affirmations. Her voice is so reassuring, soothing and strong. I love that woman so very much!

Christmas Day Blessings

Mom flew to my home for Christmas. It felt so awesome being surrounded by family, by love. 

We cooked an amazing Christmas dinner. I made a Puerto Rican pork shoulder, macaroni and cheese, and yams. My mom and sister made several yummy side dishes, and my sister’s boyfriend made chocolate chip cookies. We had fun during our gift exchange and had a few laughs as I got to play DJ, taking music requests, for everything from Christmas-themed songs to Hip Hop. 

No matter what, I wasn’t going to let anything or anyone overshadow the spirit of Christmas, and nothing and no one did. Christmas is my mom’s favorite holiday, and the Foreman girls were determined to celebrate it with love and joy. We did exactly that!

Post-Christmas Whammy

A few days after Christmas I was hit with strept throat, and as much as I like to talk, this was a major inconvenience to say the least. Even in the pain and discomfort I was laughing at the times I was forced to be silent. So no talking simply meant more reflection. Okay got it! 

My husband helped share some of the load by getting my meds and homeopathic items, and would bring me my Jimmy Dean Breakfast Bowls for the few days I was isolated to one part of the house (so I wouldn’t spread my yuckies). He would also check on me throughout the day to make sure I was comfortable and had everything that I needed. I’m grateful for his care. 

God’s Hand in My Career

How in the world can I be going through all of this while trying to build and grow my two businesses? 

God gave me the strength to conduct business calls and work from my laptop, all while sitting in bed or in a nearby chair. I was able to draft contracts, negotiate and close deals, strategically plan my companies first quarter, and wrap up 2015 not as I planned–but on a good note. 

God made it all possible. 

Just like He made it possible to go through all of this in between semesters when I normally would be teaching. The ONE semester in two years that I DON’T teach a class, how moving is that?!? God made that possible. 

I recovered enough just in time for the start of the semester for one college. Two days after I finished my strept throat meds I welcomed my students to their Intro to Management class. The other college where I teach will resume classes next month, which gives me time to pace myself and get stronger. God made and makes this possible. 

Other Personal Matters God Said Don’t Worry About

I’ve been hit with some other personal whammies over the past two months, and even a few days ago—but I KNOW the power of God. I KNOW that if God can bring me to it then He can bring me through it. This too shall pass and God will protect me each step that I take. I’m going to “ride” with Him because He’s never left my side, He’s never made a promise He didn’t keep, He never let me down, and He’s never stopped “riding” with me. God’s love and commitment to me has NEVER wavered, so I must reciprocate!

My Gratitude 

Each day I get better, stronger, and more grateful. My recent experiences have been a blessing. I know it’s odd to hear and read, but it’s true. I’m God’s creation–flawed–but His and perfect in His sight. God has shown me so much about myself and about others over the past few weeks, and I’m grateful for what He has revealed. When life and people hit you upside your head, turn to God—He ALWAYS has the answers and directions!

I’m also grateful for the seeds that He planted in me these past two months. He’s given me a vision for my present and future. He’s shown me some amazing things that are in store for me, as long as I do my part and put in the work—faith with action! God has a plan and purpose for me. I’m not concerned with what anyone else is doing. I’m not competing with anyone else. I’m not envious of anyone. I’m too focused on what God has in store for me—my purpose. 

I run a business management and support firm, and a tech company. I teach business management at two colleges. Business, management and technology are the lanes that I’m in, nothing else. I’m more than satisfied with this! I’m removing myself from places and instances where I’m drifting in a lane not assigned to me. 

God is molding me and my life as He envisions it—directing my path—and I’m going to try very hard to resist the urge to grab that steering wheel and point the “car” in a different direction. I want to live on purpose as God’s humble and loyal servant. 

My Message to YOU!

Where in this conversation with you have you heard me complaining, worrying, crying out, and expressing doubt in my ability to heal and recover? I’m not just focused on getting better than I am now. I’m focused on being better than I’ve ever been, and I know that it’s only possible with and through God. 

So my message to all of you is this, no matter what you’re going through—if you truly believe in God and His power, then trust Him to keep His word and trust Him to never lead you astray—and then take that trust and follow Him!
No weapon formed against you will prosper as long as you stand firmly in your convictions as a child of God. Don’t ever give up your fight as God’s soldier!

Announcement Coming Soon

I have an important announcement that I will be making in a few weeks. A gift from God that I want to share with the world. I’m determined to be faithful to our Father and obedient to His commands and direction. So stay tuned for details!
Love your sister in Christ,

Natasha 

Revamping, Catching Up and Apologizing

Hello Family!

I’ve been absent lately and have had issues posting to my blog. I think I found out what’s going on and it will be resolved shortly.

I apologize for the gaps in time. The thing about being human is that I’m both flawed and make mistakes, even when I strive for perfection as God’s reflection. So please hang in there with me as I work things out and get rolling again. Thank you.

With love and the warmest of wishes,
Natasha